to start of.

to start of, i would like to mention that i don't hold back in this blog. would i say this is who i am? i guess i can't be too certain either. let me add that this blog is explicit, and in no way do i apologise for underage readers, who may or may not understand what is going on. so if you mind, then this ain't for you.

first entry then.
what a damn bloody good day it's been. i've never felt this cheated in my life! i know it was not an intentional thing, but what the fuck do i look like? i put my name on the line to help, and yet you can simply forget!? how the hell can anyone just forget?!? it is as important to you as it was for me to help you. to great extremes i went, yet you could not even perform a simple task!

this is like how yoU have been treating me. yoU don't even bother to fucking try! that's what our friendship means to yoU?? when i try, yoU don't bother, when i don't try, yoU complain of yoUr 'cheated' feelings! seriously, where is the sense in that?! miss CM, life is not bed of roses. yoU don't always get all the pretty flowers growing out at once, yoU need to help them grow by plucking out all the weeds! am i a weed, or am i supposed to be a rose??

this has been a rotten week. with all this nonsense going on, and trying to split myself between so many groups of friends at the same time. i wonder how i ever have time for myself. as it is, i know i'm falling sick, but i really cant be bothered to do anything about it.

not suicidal or anything, but just feel like giving up on a lot of things. no sense in carrying on sometimes. i don't believe that the world will end in 2012, but what's there to strive for, when the world or us for that matter, will just end soon.

fuck!